Hurray I made it!

Actually I made it the 24th, but I only now sat down to blog anything. Needless to say it was an adventure. Remember how I was kinda scared of Kansas City? Well for good reason! One whole half of the bus terminal was all homeless folks in sleeping bags - and I got robbed. It was only a coat - but still! I had laid my coat across my suitcase and pulled my ticket out of my purse to give to the person at the door. I thought "Weird I thought I sat my coat here." I checked the ground/floor and whatnot and didn't see it so I thought "Oh well maybe I put it in my suitcase since it isn't so cold." WRONG! I'm glad there wasn't anything IN my coat.

I never thought I would be so happy to see huge city buildings piercing through the horizon as I was Sunday. I literally felt lost every time I looked out the window. I was somewhere of course, but where was it?! Everything looked the same. I realized I had hit Oklahoma once I noticed all the dirt was red. WTF is with red dirt? Different minerals or something? I'm going to have to look it up.

Oh and there are these little ... bobbing thingies out in fields too. I guess they're oil derricks? I don't know - and if they are then they are a miniature form. I'll have to take pictures or something.

Keith and I both woke up at o'dark stupid Christmas morning (just like little kids) and opened presents. OMFG I got the most awesome presents EVER! Keith and I have an ongoing joke about how I"m going to grow up and be a crazy lady with 50 million cats ... well he found a Crazy Cat Lady action figure. Oh man I almost pissed myself laughing. So hilarious. He also somehow found me a copy of Anne Rice's trilogy of Vampire Chronicles, The Vampire Lestat and Queen of the Damned -- all in ONE book. That stuff isn't even in print anymore! Man he's good. OH OH! He got me an antfarm too! I never had an ant farm as a kid - and he got me one! ROFL. He made my presents look lame though - but he said he liked 'em so it works for me :) Keith also got us a coffee maker which is awesome! I still have to buy his suitmate a present for when he comes back from leave.

So yeah .. I guess that's it. We'll start work on the CF University film on Jan 6th - and all updates pertaining to 'business' will be kept up to date by moi via our 'work' site http://naturalselectionstudios.com/

Hurray its Friday! I've got quite a bit to do today, but its quite early of the morning so I have the ability to type my head off till I actually have to get motivated and get things done.

I had to purchase a bus ticket - and I leave tomorrow night. Even though I'm not exactly looking foward to riding a bus for 15 hours ... I'll still be there by Christmas. That was our big thing. We both really really wanted me to be there for Christmas. Keith and I have been together almost 2 years and we have never spent a holiday together. He was at my house on New Year's - but I had to work. So yeah. The bus part I'm not looking forward to - but everything else? Man as soon as I typed that I took this reflective sigh and just got this really goofy grin on my face. Even though I couldn't -see- the grin ... it just felt as if it looked goofy.

So all that stuff I packed? I have to re-pack it. I have to go through all that and weed out what is necessity and what isn't. This has been a little added pain in my ass ... but the ends meets the means. For the past week I've had to force myself to go to sleep. This kind of sensation gets lost when you 'grow up'. That harnessed excitement that you can't even express to anyone except to jump up and down and squeal "WEEeeEEEe!" This is how I remember feeling on Christmas Eve. That only lasted a day though - this has been almost a month-long. Its worn me out for the most part, but its still great.

I still have to wrap Keith's gifts which will only take me about 30 mins - but still that's just one more thing on my hectic to-do list. I should have already done it, but its somehow gotten overlooked. I randomly recall throughout the day that it has to be done, but it doesn't take presidence over everything else for some reason. I'll get them wrapped tonight.

After thinking about it - the whole bus thing kinda freaks me out. I'll have to be sure to bring a couple books so that I have plenty to keep myself occupied with. Most my trip will be spent here in Missouri so its not as if looking out the window will bring any kind of enjoyment as I've probably seen it before (don't get me wrong - Missouri is scenic in a lot of places). I'm only stopping at a couple cities - but I'm still excited about that. Not too keen on Kansas City, but from pictures it looks intimidating. So maybe I'll see something cool and I don't mean a bag lady or anything like that (Oh Gods please don't let me be confronted by a homeless person - I'm such a softie)

Keith just called and is now home from work - so I'm going to flirt with him for a bit before he passes out and then I'm off to get things accomplished. Not sure if I'll be back to blog before I head out on my journey - so if the bus explodes these will be my last words:

When it comes to discussing anime or video games - don't be a spoiler. Don't trade in your uber-geek points for a get out of jail free card.

Ciao!

A few things have gone on, and of course I'm going to post about it.

The second episode of Noob Be Gone is complete and available for public viewing over at me and Keith's site. I'm glad its finally done and out of the way. Sometimes recording audio is a pain. I mean seriously - how many different ways can you say a single paragraph? And to make it worse .. we don't script anything. We shoot a lot of footage - then sit down and talk while watching it. What tends to happen is: we get a lot of great audio ... but one will cut the other off talking and if we actually like it we have to re-record that part. Its really hard to get that spur-of-the-moment innocense out of things when you have to repeat them, I guess.

At any rate Noob Be Gone: Building Tutorials is complete. View, learn, and enjoy. With the hectic week or so ahead, not to mention another huge project - the 3rd episode may be a bit slow going. Here's a rundown of the next few weeks:

• Film a wedding on 12/20
• Get everything packed and ready to go by 12/22
• Finish up Yule shopping by 12/21
• Move
• Begin filming video for BEF

I realize that it doesn't sound like much - but its quite a bit. Oh and once I film that wedding - Keith has to edit the footage once I get moved. There are probably a few things that I'm leaving out but at the moment I just can't seem to remember.

Six contacted me tonight and asked me to write for a SL Fashion blog she and Garbage started called Appearance Mode. I have no idea how my weird-ass fashion sense is going to mingle in with everyone else ... but hey it'll be an adventure of sorts, right? Maybe now I can start showing people stuff that doesn't come from names they already know. That's really what I hope to do. We'll see I guess.

Its almost 4am and I really should go to bed. I have lots more laundry to do so that I can pack but now I'm just exhausted. Procrastinator? Yes. That's me!

Alright. Noob Be Gone II ... we've had to re-record some audio but for the most part everything is done. We have so many ideas for future videos, but things have to be done in order or else it isn't a true tutorial (which is what we're aiming for)

My last day of work was Tuesday, and I already feel like a huge weight has been lifted off me. There's still a lot of stress to come - but this has seriously been a big sigh of relief. People: Never EVER work fast food unless you're in Dire Straits and you just HAVE to in order to feed yourself. Other than that - work retail if it comes down to one or the other.

I think next week is the DEFINATE time I'm leaving to move in with Keith. This week was kind of a no-go due to a lot of factors .. but I'm not bummed about it. I mean in all honesty ... I've waited this long. Another week feels like a day. Seriously. Just KNOWING a day has made me giddy beyond belief. It still seems surreal and the permanence of it hasn't set in at ALL .. but does that matter? Like I said before - I'm just ecstatic to SEE him much less anything else.

This long distance thing has really taught me to never take anything for granted. I think many many MANY people take relationships for granted. They don't pay attention to all the little things that matter. People just settle into that comfort zone way too fast and it just ruins everything. Some get so jealous and possessive. It all seems so immature to me now. Not relationships in general ... but the way people handle them. Moving right along!

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After Yule, Keith and I will start filming on a new project we were contracted for .. and for those that check this: Not only will we be adjusting to our lives together, but we'll be getting accustomed to actually working together so please please -please- have patience. Our creative processes are so totally different that its going to be quite interesting to see how we work when we're face to face. Not that we haven't BEEN face to face before - but when we have been we didn't work. He and I are an awesome team, and we seem to just feed off each other in the creative department - but as I said - our process is different. He's obsessive about things whereas I gogogogo till I'm burnt then I have to walk away. He never seems to get his fill. He's the one that keeps picking my brain when I think I can't come up with anything else.

I'm really excited to see what we can accomplish together. He's a bit of a perfectionist when it comes to things, and I'm the easily amused one. He loves nearly every crazy idea I come up with, and I never think its good enough. He's the "go for it" type, whereas I feel I need some kind of approval. Like I said - this will be interesting.



This new venture we've taken on will be taking up a lot of our free time both in and out of simply filming. Its going to take a lot more planning, diagrams and scheduling. I've got total faith that the end result is going to be majorly awesome - but the process is what I'm looking most foward to. Its like putting two monkeys in a cage with a drumset. Its going to get loud, rowdy, and be fun to sit back and watch. *scratches her armpit*

I've really been trying to keep this blog up to date with everything as far as personal life and 'business' life goes but I noticed that I'm a big flaky. I do enjoy going back and reading everything as I never plan or memorize anything I write.

So here I sit with a 710mL can of Full Throttle .. looking at all the stuff I've half packed sitting over by the wall. I plan to spend most of tomorrow going through everything, packing, and wrapping presents. I'm sure Keith doesn't think I can do it - but I can :) And? I will. Oh yes. I will.

I had a lot more stuff to write about - but I started listening to My Quirky Rocker pandora station and its simply slipped my mind.

All the audio has been finished - and Keith has been editing on the 2nd episode for a couple hours now :) So the second episode of Noob Be Gone should be completed in its entirety in a matter of days - if not sooner. I know how Keith gets on an edit spree and gets all obsessive about it and won't stop until its done. I could make a comment here but I'll refrain.

Recently I've found I have an obsession or two. One is checking blogs. There are quite a few that I read - and I check 'em more regularly than I check my own e-mail. I had originally started reading Willow's blog when I used to frequent PXP. Maybe I'm weird in the sense that I like to 'know' about what I'm reading. Anyway - I now check her blog regularly to catch bits n pieces of things I don't know about. Its apparent she's a shopping goddess - and I severly lack in that department. Willow, I'll let you do the shopping for me. I'll just photoshop my av's head onto your av's and it'll be like playing with paper dolls.

I check Six's blog often. Not sure why. She throws hair at me all the time - and I always like her stuff so I don't even have to see it to know I'll like it. Not to mention we've known each other almost 2 years so she pretty much knows what I like and what I don't like.

There are quite a few other blogs I check - but at the moment they escape me. I'm too busy singing along to my trip hop Pandora station :)

Speaking of that .. have you ever noticed how hard it is to type something when you're singing? I don't know if anyone else has that problem or not - but it seems any time I am singing I have to stop, type, then sing again otherwise I'll type what I'm singing and not what I'm thinking. Ugh I'm so weird.

It is official. I am moving in with Keith this month (insert girly giggles and goofy grins here). For the past almost 2 weeks - the days have really drug by :( I figured they would zoom, but no. I've been foiled. I'm sososososososo excited! I know I'm going to end up procrastinating and not getting things packed until the last minute - but that doesn't even matter. I am sick - and nearly lost my voice - so I didn't talk ALL day at work today. Didn't mumble a single word. And within all that quiet time I had time to think. Imagine that.

So I was thinking. I was thinking about how easy this entire relationship has been. Yeah the lack of physicality was a bit frustrating - but it wasn't hard. We haven't had any drama. No one's had a problem with anything. To my knowledge no one's disagreed to us being together. He's genuinely happy with me (even my faults and things that are annoying) and that's awesome. In all actuality this whole thing has been a fairy tale complete with a huge box of love letters, a pressed flower or two .. and a prince whisking his princess away. Could it get any better folks? No. No it can't.

Alright back to obsessions. I bought Elite Beat Agents yesterday .. and I'm so hooked. I've done 2 levels of difficulty so far and I can't stop! I even took the damn DS to work so I could play on my break LOL Its so fun though! Argh!

K I think that's all. I'm really just excited about SEEING Keith that I don't think the whole permanent end of it has set in yet. Does that even make sense? Hurray! Love wins!

Weeee!

(and some old photos I took)

I'll just get right to the point, k? This week has really done a number on me. I am so worn out - and my nerves are barely existant. I work so much - and my job is so needlessly stressful. Not to mention all the other projects I have going on once I get home. I work on something from the time I get up until the time I finally fall asleep ... and even when I sleep I'm dreaming about working.

There are three major projects Keith and I are working on - and the possibility of a fourth. Two of the three are on-going long term projects that we'll probably always add to until infinity .. the other though still very major is just a one time deal.

I guess with just having a rough week I just haven't felt up to par. My temper is short. My motivation non existant .. I'm just "testy" I guess. As far as these projects go, it just feels that I'm not getting my 'vision' across to articulate exactly what it is I want - though I lack the fire to really sit and try to clarify it. Best way to put it: I'm burnt.

Once all the holiday crap is out of the way and things start settling down at work I'm sure I'll be back to normal. One day this week I actually thought about quitting just because I didn't want to do it (work) anymore. How stupid is that? I actually had the mindset that its alright to up and quit doing anything you don't want to do - regardless of anything else. That's not ok! WTF is wrong with me?! Needless to say I didn't quit and they are still working me to death .. but at least its a paycheck. The end always meets the means ... even if it sucks while doing so.

Today I chilled out a lot - and I have my poetic nature to thank for that I guess. I work in a fast food joint ... and I go in to work at o'dark stupid. Its always cold and pitch black outside when I leave for work. I do the prep stuff and then I stand in the drive thru window until the next person reports for their shift and then I get rotated around the resturant. So at around 6am I'm standing in the drive thru window. It wasn't that cold out and not to mention we have those overhead heaters for indoor AND outdoor heat so I flipped those on and flung the window open.

I stood there quietly and listened to the faint hum of the cars wizzing by on the interstate. Where are they going? Where have they been, and why are they in such a hurry? How many times have I counted vehicles going down the highway on the way to work that have a headlight out? How many times have I been counted by someone doing the exact same thing? As I stood there with the window open, thinking all this - I noticed the sky.

Sunrises and sunsets are always captivating in their own way - and no two are alike. I've played with photography a bit in the past - and skyscapes were always my strongpoint. My Photojournalism teacher once said to me "Its astounding that you seem to catch something that always makes me think 'Wow I wish I could have seen that'. Yes its just the sky, but in all your photographs it seems you look up at the only moment that could have possibly happened, and you capture it. Even though its a simple photo, there is still oddly emotion in every piece of yours I see. That is true talent." So now, I will attempt to describe everything I saw and thought in the half hour or so that I lost myself.



The glare from the Citgo Station sign was a bit overbearing in the foreground at first, but the longer I saw it there ... the more it felt it really belonged there. In the dark hours of the morning, the glow from the red and yellow sign almost felt warm. Artificial sunlight in its most sleazy form. It definately belonged where it was. I could see the tops of the street lamps from downtown, and even a slight haze of green, yellow, and red from the traffic lights. Traffic lights are the heartbeat of any town. Like the heart - traffic lights continue their mission even when nothing is there. Its subconcious.

Its always amazed me that water makes clouds. Water in its liquid form is predictable. You know what will happen if you do something. Clouds are different. Though they are water, they don't hold the same properties. They're anything but predictable. There's rarely any kind of pattern in them - and I think that's what fascinates me. Today the clouds were frail and mournful. They weren't the robust expressions of light or the menacing swirls of backlashed karma that they're often depicted as. Ever notice that? Photographs of clouds are in one of two categories: Fluffy or Storming. These were neither.

The clouds seemed to express my emotions. They were there, though trying to wither behind something so as not to be noticed. How could anyone not notice? They clearly had a foundation, yet seemed to droop as if slowly slipping from their platform. As they loosened their grip they became more translucent. In these areas the sun colored them hues of pink and lavender. Their origins were shaded. You see, though these thin parts were the most brilliantly colored - and though they were so thin - they were still enough to shield the sun from their 'roots'. What is it they are letting go of .. or are they being let go?

These fragile curtains slowly dripped lower as the moments passed, and I watched with delight as their colors changed. From pinks and purples to shades of orange and reds. The cars on the interstate seemed to drown me in their white noise - it was as if it was a soundtrack. A horn would honk, but it wouldn't be startling. It was like every shound was a que - and the clouds were listening. As the sun grew brighter the colors faded. The once bright visages that seemed to burn in the sky - now lost their fuel and became ash.

Have I blinked yet? Did the gas station just turn off their lights? Suddenly everything seemed so dull. The sun which gives life to so many things - suddenly drained every ounce of mystery from everything before my eyes. There were broken bottles on the parking lot. The shards of glass which once shimmered from the soft glow of the artificial light was suddenly ugly. The clouds which seemed to do a slow dance in the sky - now were ash colored and had forgotten their coreography. The hum of the vehicles on the interstate were now interrupted by loud semi trucks and their pipes billowed with black smoke. The twinkle of those few moments were gone.

It all sounds so depressing now. It wasn't at the time though. It was like a revealation, of sorts. I was like "Wow I feel so dumb for seeing things like that when this is how things really are." But ya know .. life is just like that. You see things how you seem them at the moment, only to later learn that it isn't how it is.

I guess I just thought everything was going to be easier as far as getting where I'm going - but now the reality of how hard it truely is has started to set in. I've really been working my ass off for the past 4 months. The initial excitement has sort of worn off and now its strictly business. Its no longer a passing thought - this has become a driving force for everything I do. I have to get up after only 3 hours of sleep and work 9 hours a day, 6 days a week because of Keith. If it were up to me I would have given up on this crap a LONG time ago ... but this isn't for me. This is for us, and I think that's why I continue.

Keith .. if you read this .. I love you.

Hmm.

Well its taking a bit longer on the 2nd episode only because Bebop and I are having a 3rd person to narrative audio. So we have to correograph our schedules in order to all sit down and record everything.

I do have to get props to Jade Opel because she's been such a huge help as an extra in this 2nd episode. Any time we need an extra body she's right there. She's so awesome. Don't know if she reads this or not - but - thank you, Jade. You've been a tremendous help and you're just irreplaceable. You're awesome!

I've recently been contracted to write a narrative type script to go along with a flick Bebop is filming for the CF University in SL which is part of the BEF. I've got quite a bit done, and I think everything with that is going to be awesome. I've always done a lot of volunteer work and work for foundations (including ringing bells around Yule for the Salvation Army) so this is right up my alley. Not to mention working in long term care facilities - which has given me a little awareness on cystic fribrosis ... moving on!

Work has been really really hectic lately, but I'm trying to keep a level head. I'm hoping to have everything taken care of by January so that I can be with Bebop full time. At first I thought this would increase our creativity .. but as time draws nearer I see that its going to delay it. Not in a bad way though. Bow chicka bow wow. Teehee ^.^

While everyone else is celebrating Thanksgiving .. Bebop and I are on Skype. He's playing HalfLife2 while I blog this nearly pointless post. Its just funny. Everything's silent for a bit then he'll yell "AHHH STRIDER IN THE STREET!" I'm too easily amused, I think.

I think I've developed an addiction. Lately I feel like I"m not 100% without drinking 4 or more cups of coffee. I feel like I can't write unless I'm drinking coffee while I do it. I'm not talking your normal weak American coffee .. I'm talking coffee that my grandfather makes (Who's from Ireland and always bashes how puny coffee is in America). This stuff .. compared to what I know as coffee is more like coffee syrup lol But hey ... it gets the job done. Coffee was my substitute for pop as I try to lose some weight but now it seems I've grown dependant on the black veil that is my lifeline to creativity these days.

So we're still filming on the 2nd Episode of Noob Be Gone .. Keith has yet to update the site's sponsors page (I'll probably do it myself once I post this) .. and I've been dabbling in photoshop lately. I always see all these people with such pretty profile pictures in SL so I thought I'd try my hand at it. Another thing I like about these suped-up profile pics is: Everyone has their own noticable style! I don't think I've found my niche yet where that's concerned ... but I like it anyway :) And .. its kinda fun to see how much the picture changes while I work on it.


Yeah it pales in comparison to a lot I've seen .. but its mine.

So yep just chillin and listening to my pandora station while I wrap this up and get ready to fix the sponsors page.

Hurray!

Alrighty!

The Noob Be Gone: Camera Tutorials has been finished for about .. a week. So far we've gotten such great feedback! I've yet to hear a negative comment about anything - though for a while I was afraid that my sense of humor would have folks thinking that I'm a ditzy air-head (which couldn't be further from the truth.)

We had started work on the second episode Noob Be Gone: Building before we'd even realeased the first, and things are going smoothly. I'm still combining things to update our site

We've been trying for over a year to find someone to donate some land that kept good frame rates with no success. Of course lots of offered to let us rent land. I guess they think we get paid for these things? People we're just as broke as the rest of you are. Neither of us run some emporium that sells all kinds of things to make a profit. Hell I spent a good year DJing just to save up and give to Keith for our first meeting. Back to the point ...

NSS has a lot of sponsors. Lost, Cubey Terra, Makaio Stygan, Neil Protagonist and LOTS more ... everything we have has been given to us out of generocity. Including the island, yes island we film on. Keith contacted Anshe Chung, who then had one of her represenatives talk to us. They donated an entire island - for free. Ya know - people can talk trash about SL residents. They can throw hissy fits over brilliant creations. They can even whine about all that RP mafia junk .. but the bottom line is: there are some downright caring, forward-thinking, creative, original, and overall cool people in SL.

In one post I talked about how Keith is so creative. He is. I talked about how I wished I had talent, I do. There are times I forget that a lot of his ideas are my ideas too. I forget that I mention things, we throw it around, and then make some form 'reality' out of a passing thought I had. I had sent a notecard to a designer, inviting her to be a sponsor. As I was trying to think of how to introduce myself Keith said "Well pft you're like the co-everything ya know". Until that point I hadn't thought I was. I thought I was just the little dorky cheerleader on the bottom of the pyramid. Now I see it as: I'm the overweight cheerleading coach that can't do the moves - but knows how they should be done. Wow that was a funny reference.

So yeah. Audio will be started this week-end for the second episode, and we've already got tons of ideas for other videos (which I won't mention!) I'm glad to see there are so many machinima enthusiasts in SL. It always suprises me how many people have actually seen something Keith and I have worked on.

The downside to all this is: a lot of people get the impression that I'm just the tag-along. People I'm not just a purple avatar. I didn't buy a 'voice pack' - that's MY voice uploaded into SL combined with triggers. I don't live some fantasy in SL to be something I can't be in RL. SL is just my outlet. Its my forum. It is my way of being able to express myself without having to take quite so many risks.

I mean take a movie for instance. Do you have ANY idea how much it costs to make a movie?! In SL - it only costs a one time fee of $10 (unless you have a free account - but it costed Keith and I $10). Not everyone can run around in a laytex suit with purple hair and that be acceptable. I did have purple hair at one time, though. I'm getting off point. The point is: If you don't want to deal with me tell me. Don't think that I'm not just as much a part of things that get done with NSS as Keith is. Don't assume that just because I make fart jokes that I can't be taken seriously. And don't think that if you talk to him on a seperate occasion that I won't know about it. Also? Don't blow me off just because you do think I'm this little 'tag-along' ... and then instead speak to him. Nothing bothers me more than when I talk to someone about NSS and get absolutely no response or feedback .. then they IM Keith and I'm like "yeah I talked to them earlier. they aren't interested" yet change your tune. Oh I'm not good enough to do business with, but he is? That just downright hurts.

I tried to gather people while Keith was in basic training. Of course I've had access to his account since before he left .. but I never used it until then. People would just refuse to talk to me. So I'd log out and log in as him and they'd talk to me until I couldn't type anymore. I just don't understand that. See? Now I've gone off on a rant. And that doesn't feel like happy!

So beyond all that - I'm glad that people have liked our flick. I'm elated that so many have watched it and learned something from it - even experienced players. That's what this series was all about: helping. With the influx of new players its hard for anyone to keep up with who knows what and to actually give the attention to someone that really does need the help. Most games come with an instruction book. SL is different. It doesn't. So I'll just look at our Noob Be Gone series as the instructional book to SL :) Except our manuals are easier to read, and our diagrams are a bit more in depth than "Insert slot A into slot B".

I think that's it for now. I have to go to my glorious job in the morning. One day I'll grow up and not have to work so hard for so little. I still plan to be the crazy old lady with 50 million cats though. Hey, everyone has to have goals!

Yargh!

Alright so I worked today, as per almost every day. The new girl Megan was on break the same time I was, so I thought I'd hang out with her and get to know a little about her. I've already learned enough about everyone else there to know that I have nothing in common with them .. so I took a chance on her.

She was sitting out by the dumpster smoking while we were talking, and this 'short bus' of Air Force Personnel pulls up. No big deal, right? So she and I are talking and these two girls butt into our conversation. Both girls are cocky and have attitudes so I tell Megan "Hey I'm gonna head in." and as I turn around one of the girls says .. 'Yeah you'd better march your fat ass back inside."

Oh hell no she didn't.

So a few words were exchanged. I was in her face begging her to hit me when her commander came around the corner and told the two girls to back off. I said "You'd better get your bitches on a leash, Pimp." He laughed and I said something to the effect of "I think it would be best if the two of you marched your narrow asses back to your Military Short Bus before I seriously rip of your head and spit down your neck."

Alright so after work I came home. Stef (Xaria Concord) showed me some snapshots of some shoes .. that are stolen. Blah. Heart Wishbringer and Joe Stravinsky used to be THE shoe designers of SL. They closed shop about 6 months ago to cash out lindens and meet .. anyway ... someone has ripped a few of their shoes prim for prim - and even used the same textures. Its pathetic that people stoop to such lows.

Keith did some more editing on a project we're working on - and so far its pretty damn funny. Not dry humor funny - but random 'wtf' funny. I'm amused by it anyway, but at times that doesn't say much.

I really hate my job. I really hate how fate seems to put me through more trials than what's necessary ... I'm still just waiting for when everything will pay off. I realize I'm not the most patient person, but I've really been patient with everything for soooo long. I'm giving myself a pat on the back here.

I've really lost track of everything I was going to post ... maybe I'll remember later.

Alright so after getting everything together, I decided to post.

Keith (Bebop) and I are working on a few things in Second Life - and that's mostly what I did today. We recorded some audio to go with the video we've done, and he'll be editing it sometime or another.

He finished editing Jade Opel's wedding, and the video really blew me away. He really astounds me with his talent, and even makes me jealous at times. I think its just my self-esteem bottoming out because hey, who doesn't want to be talented?! Or at least good at something. The only thing I really excell at .. is dancing horribly. I'm the best!

I haven't done any kind of code writing in forever, so it was rough editing this layout to get it how I wanted it. It seems ready-made layouts are always so depressing or Goth and that's so not me. Well yes there are times I get kinda poopy and down in the dumps (haha what a pun!) but it isn't what I'm 'into' per se.

Some days it seems I don't feel as if I've gotten anything done. Even days that I work 10 hours I feel like I've accomplished nothing. I think I've just gotten into a bit of a rut and hopefully I can claw my way back out. I had a little rant yesterday with Keith - and I think its just because I had time to think. So I told him a story or two that he didn't know, which didn't really make me feel any better lol I think I just wanted to talk but I didn't know what to talk about. Surely I'm not the only person that's ever happened to. Or am I? >.>

I guess that's it. No real musings for the moment or anything like that. I'm quite disappointed with the blog music player as it really has no music that I listen to on a regular basis. But until I find a good replacement it'll have to do.

I had all kinds of things that I wanted to say - but after fixing up a layout I've forgotten a lot of it.

Oh well. Maybe later.